My memorable Wedding Day...

I woke up in the dawn, I could hear the voices, those murmuring noises!!
I could smell the food, prepared in a festive mood!!
Kith’s & kin’s had a special stay, my most primal occasion, it was my wedding day!!

I could see my father, months of tiredness, but he wasn’t bothered!!
Filled with passion, his only mission,
To give his best, in this little congregation!!
He said to me in a heavy tone,
My darling princess, today, you will be gone!!
The day you were born, the day we had,
You made my world, you made me a proud dad!!
My every little treasure, my every pray,
I give it to you, on your wedding day!!

She gave me a hug, filled with warmness, full of love!!
Those watery eyes, the serenity in her vibes,
All those sacrifices, all those tries!!
All those teachings, all those norms,
All my traits, belongs to my lovely mom!!
Two pillars of life, are love and joy,
But wherever you go, never forget that blue boy!!
There are times, when life becomes hard,
But never feel scared as he will be your guard!!
My only mantra of life, I must say,
My every blessing, I give it to you on your wedding day!!

Kids were here and there, celebrations were everywhere,
House filled with little clans, but empty was my inner layer!!
Where are my Barbies, those crazy dreams, those hobbies?
Playing every silly games, playing hide and seek in those lobbies!!
Where are my little treasures, my only assets, my every pleasure?
Those carefree childhood days, full of life, full of leisure’s!!

She could see my struggle, my inner quest, my puzzle,
Came to me with a delighted face, my darling girl stop this race!!
Today is the day, when you entering a new bay,
Full of love and sacrifices, comes in all shapes and sizes!!
A bond you are making, a relationship all above,
You are the lucky girl my darling, you marrying a person you love!!

After listening to her lovely words, tear came in my eyes,
Earlier a daughter, now his wife!!
A new life is about to begun, by your mercy, by your grace,
I only seek your love my Krishna, in this chapter, in this phase!!
Endeavour to give my best, in every life, in every way,
My most happiest moment, my memorable wedding day!!

Internal Rendezvous

My dear God!
I want to ask you so many questions,
And want to pray and give u’ some instructions!!

Though I know, I am a tiny creature, in your beautiful nature!!
Not so honest and not so true,
But we are one GOD! As you reside in me and I in you!!

So as your daughter, I ask you my creator!

Why you created such indifference,
where rich dominates poor and create turbulence???
Why you created love with the pain,
where one looses everything and other’s only gain???

Why you created birth & death,
where one gives you immense bliss & other you just cannot accept???

Why you created black & white,
where one kills others for colour, caste and pride???

Why everything is turning around?
Why truth is losing its ground?
Why nature is being trimmer?
Why saints are becoming sinners?
Why trust is being lost somewhere
And why liars are becoming winners???
Oh my dear God!
We all say that everything happens for a reason,
Then why young children die without any sin, without any season???

Why babies are born blind,
Why some newly born have no senses & some have no mind???

Why people kill each other,
Why they betray their own self, their own brother???

Oh my dear God!
I have no answer to my own questions,
But I ask you and seek some suggestion!!!

My dear GOD, please forgive me for my arrogance
& overlook any of my negligence!!
But these questions knock my head every time,
as why people are crucified without any cause, without any crime???

Dear God! May be it’s our own “KARMA”
But every time this theory puts me in dilemma!!!

My merciful God, I have no desire for any name & fame,
And now I will stop this blaming game!!!
But I have only one prayer,
That please make us strong internally!
So we face the realities of this life, happily!
Accept the gifts by you, gracefully!
And live in this beautiful planet, peacefully!

Bless us with that pure heart,
So we give this life a new start!
Which is full of your faith and devotion,
And enrich us in your love and emotion!!

My dearest God! I will not ask you any more questions,
As I know you are the source of every creation and destruction!!

Life is just Ineffable…..

Now a day’s life is just ineffable. So many excitements going on in life, some excitements gives us extreme happiness that we just want it more and more but it never happens. Time changes and we are forced to change with time.

This is about my life journey, different chapter, some good, some bad, in some chapters I learn a lot and in some I repent.
But in nutshell, I am thankful to God for his kind mercy on my life.

I live in Australia and I love this country. So many things I have learned here. It teaches me how to be self stand, how to take my own life decisions, how to fulfill my dreams, how to enjoy my own company, how to enjoy my independence in a subtle way. This is remarkable journey.

It started in 2005, 10th June but for how long, I am not sure, may be forever or may be for few years. Let's see where it will take me.

In this 4 years, I have been to India 3 times and this May 1st will be my 4th trip. Yes ! I am going again to India. Excited ofcourse but this time, I am going with different state of mind. Time is short in this trip, my last trip lasted for 4 mths and 3 days which was my most memorable journey. In that trip I explored India a lot. I went to Mathura, Vrindavan, All mata's, Vaishno mata, Rajasthan, Agra, Kerela, South India, almost everywhere. But time flows like river. Today its just a memory which makes me smile when I recap those times in my mind.

I want to share so many things, my journey so far in Australia, new experiences with new people, some new relationships started forever, some bitter relationships gone forever. Life is full of surprises.

Student life was totally diffrent,everyday I was juggling with new lessons of life, everyday a dream was seen and everday a struggle to fulfill it was made.

Now work life is different, though all the student life dreams are fulfilled. I am working for MNC, just the same way I use to think but still these desires never stop. Once you achieve it, your appetite for next level starts. Now you want to go further, its good in one sense but if your current work is not making you peaceful and satisfied and if anxiety overpowers you, that's bad. You should be smart enough to look for opportunities but you should not be fool to disrespect your current work.

I have also started doing things which makes me happy, the things which makes me kid again, which makes me full of life, which I never get bored to do, which gives me inner fire that is never out of fuel, like writing, learning classical dance, tennis, going for long drives, walking on the sea sand, doing yoga, laughing, dancing on high volume music, clicking pictures of each and every moment, doing bush walks, exploring new places, travelling. Every little thing which I always want to do.

We work for living but we don't live for work. People often complaint about being so busy especially in foreign countries that they have no time to enjoy their inner self. They just work or are so busy in their family life, they just forget how to laugh. We don't have to be rich to enjoy our dreams, we just have to be smarter and more organised to plan our dreams and to take the right action.

We seek big pleasures but forget to find the happiness in small hidden mysteries of life.

I have so much to share, Gifts of Australia, my journey. I am thankful to this country. Yes! I still miss my family a lot but now I have stopped winging. I have started seeing the life here.

I will make you part of my each and every chapter but slowly and steadily. How things changed, how can we learn from these things. Everything teaches us, we just need that vision to understand what its trying to teach us.

India is always great but life is worth living here too. Life is just ineffable......

20/04/09

Monday

Jyoti

Mixed Feelings!!!

Why we all have mixed feelings?

This is not about my life story but a feeling which constantly knocks my mind. Why we are happy and sad. Why can’t we be happy all the time?

Why we all are crying for one or the other thing? Why we waste our time in collecting rubble and forget to see and collect the precious diamonds we have.

We forget to see our parents, kids, our relatives, our friends which makes our life complete but instead we fight, dad with his son on property, wife with husband & husband’s family, brother and brother on money.

Lovers who love each other at one time so deeply break that beautiful relationship after few months because of false ego, because of lack of understanding.
You try to be the most successful person in any field you choose but you can’t make just one person happy in your whole life, what an irony!!

No one is ready to sacrifice, sacrifice their expectations, their false ego, their negative thinking. We all betray each other, instead we all betray our inner self. We portray ourselves as being the kindest person on earth, always helpful, religious. But if we are good, then why we are sad, never satisfied.

When a mother carries a baby in her lap, at that time she is the luckiest women on this earth as she has been given the honour by GOD to enjoy this motherhood, there are many ladies in this world, who can not conceive. So a mother should always thank to God for his kind mercy on her.

When whole family is enjoying supper or an evening tea all together, they should really thank GOD, there are many families, who are so busy in this mundane world to enjoy each other’s company.

When a husband and a wife go for a walk after dinner, they should thank GOD for giving them such a good understanding.

Let’s change this old norm of being selfish, let’s start giving. Giving whatever we can. Smile, forgiveness, feeling of indebtedness, politeness, anything we have. I am sure we are good in one thing or the other. Let’s start sacrificing, little demanding but more giving.

First understand, people never hurt you, its only our expectations which get hurt, if they are not ready to understand you due to any reason, they are only massaging their ego, let them do it,, instead feel sorry for them and pray to GOD, for giving them good and positive thinking & understanding and thank to GOD for his kind mercy on you that still you have no bad feelings for this person. As long as you are satisfied in your mind, that you have not done anything wrong, then leave all worries.

After reading this, give a deep thought. Its not a philosophy but a honest effort, which I am trying. ‘Cause I really want to be happy all the time, and don’t want to nag for anything, though I do many times, but at least I can try.

You know, I am really satisfied after writing this, because I asked this question and I answered my own question. May be tomorrow, a new thought knocks my mind, mind, my MAGICAL MIND!!!

Wait and watch and TRY TRY again.
Be happy :o)
JG

Are we Servant or Master?

Are we servant or a master, this sometimes I wonder?
We call ourselves Master, always feed our ego regular!!!

We own a house, we become masters,
We have a good spouse, we become masters!!

We have a name, we become masters,
We have fame, we become masters!!

We are opulent, we become masters,
We are extravagant, we become masters!!

What an illusion, what a confusion,
What an irony, what an insanity!!

We can’t control our senses, but we call ourselves master!!
We don’t have any ethics, but we call ourselves masters!!

We are run by our emotions, but we call ourselves masters!!
Always lead our lives in commotion, but we call ourselves masters!!

We are like a rolling stone, always boast about the things we own,
Feel envy when we see rich zone, but we call ourselves masters!!

We are servants, servant from the very beginning,
As some serve their inner senses & put their happiness into conditioning!!

Some serve their kits & kin’s, to please them, we commit so many sins,
Some serve this material world, always behave like a nerd!!

After giving a deep thought, I realise that service is our eternal companion,
Then why to act like a master and become a rebellion!!

Why not to serve that blue boy, whose service always give bliss and joy,
Why not to serve that supreme personality & give up this fake identity!!

Let’s serve everyone, because he resides in every being,
Let’s try to give smile to others, in everyway, by our every means!!

So let’s try to please him & later not repent,
As he is the only master & we all are his servant!!

Saint $ Sinner

I was a Saint, when I was born,

I was a Saint, as I was known.



Those beautiful times, Those magnanimous days,

Those precious moments, Those innocent ways.



I was a Saint, when i was growing,

Like a seed, which is sowing.



Though I was timid, like a Tortoise,

Still full of life, full of noise.



I never fear, never agitate,

I loved everyone, I never hate.



I was princess, belongs to my Dad,

Though I was good, still sometimes bad.



Use to go to Temple, with my lovely Mom,

She taught me Devotion, & few life norms.



I use to ask, with innocence & joy,

who is this KRISHNA, who is this BLUE BOY.



Everytime she says, He is your GOD,

He is your FATHER, He is your LORD.



My world were my Pals, my bliss were my dreams,

my strength were my Parents, my desires were Ice creams.



I was a Saint, though I use to nag,

why this vicious circle, why this birth & zap?



I was a Saint, then what went wrong,

why I become a Sinner, as i was so strong.



I was a Saint, then why this pain?

How come this sins, enter my vain.



I was a Nova, I was a Lore,

when KRSIHNA gives everything, then why i ask more?



Why I become selfish, why i cheat,

why this lust, why this greed?



Though I never murder, I never drink,

then why my inner tells, I commit a Sin.



Though their are times, when I am the best,

when all my contaminated thoughts, goes to rest.



Now, I want to crucify, my Sinner-self,

I want to dig, my Inner-Wealth.



I want to chastise, my Enviness,

I want to abondon, my gibberishness.



Why to play this wicked game, why to have two names,

why to become a Hypocrite, why to always seek for fame.



Now, its the time to Vow, to nurture and to sow,

A seed of LOVE & PURITY, which always spread and glow.



I am Eternal, I am born Winner,

Yes! I am a SAINT, I am not a sinner.